A creature of this world...
I have changed a lot in the last half year - probably more than ever before. It has been tough and it isn't over yet. But I have the feeling that it will leave me more happy. I understand myself more, what I want with my life and I am a lot better at accepting myself and being true to myself - following my heart.
What do I really want then...Well, that is of course not so easy to say...since it is something that you need to feel. I feel my way though life.
I have always wanted to be special and not live in vain. Many would say that I am very special and has made a good impression on many and even made a difference here in this world. Everyone likes fame, and even though I like being remembered, I rather want to be remembered by my family and friends than being a celebrity.
I have started to care less and less about work and school. I have always been doing good as I am not stupid and I feel the need to show myself that I am worth something. I once wanted to do very well, get a great job and make a name of myself...probably as a way of being accepted by people. Now, I rather want to have nice friends, a girlfriend that I love with my whole heart and build a family. I want to have time for my family...I want to love and cherish them - I want to be a sun in their daily lives. I don't care about money. My lack of money often limits me in what I am able to do...but I will probably get a decent job with my education. I just need enough money to take care of my family and to live a decent life. I don't need a big house or the most expensive car. I rather want a small cozy house where I feel home than a huge palace that feels cold and alien to me.
I think there is a chance of me succeeding. I have faith in that...that would make me the happiest man alive!